this year, i have been drifting in the background, absorbing everything that came my way. people's feelings; people's perception of life; of hope; of togetherness; of seperation.

it began during orientation when the spotlight was on the new j1s. and subsequently in council, in every aspects of my life.

sometimes you feel that you arent there for yourself, you were merely there for the other people around you. and no, its not about you doing anything for them, but just you in the shadows of the rest, listening to other lives' stories instead of forging your own.

and when i thought about those thoughts, i realise that actually i had done what a kaichuen would do. to be there for others when they most needed someone. to be the support, the playmaker. to be there for one of my best friends to win the heart of another girl, to be there to prevent more political unrests in the upcoming 2nd orientation, to be a body part: a shoulder, a ear.

i kinda like what i am involved in now, to know that i could make a difference for the better. the most i could do for someone else to forge their own story. just to be that one element in their life stories, to let them cross the boundary of accomplishing their one shot at fame; at recognition. no matter how small the role is. yet to know you all even considered asking me for some guidance, i really want to thank you guys for giving me that affirmation that i meant something to you all.

to that best friend who would know who he is after reading this, that everything that i have said to you, is what i would have done if i were you. as much as you will take the final victory,it doesnt matter to me, for everything that i have done. i chose to want to be there for you. i just want to say that, you cannot lose hope and you got to keep trying because i havent lost faith in you. write that wonderful story, and make me proud.

sometimes, a hero needs to be in the shoes of his sidekick to know what it truly meant to be that main character.

sometimes, a sidekick is actually a hero too and a greater hero at that.he is the hero for a hero.