sometimes there's so much uncertainty in life, you dont know what to make of it, dont know what to comprehend, and unsure of how to deal with the constant fear of the unknown.

the uncertainty of your future path, the uncertainty of the dangers that lie ahead. the uncertainty of the uncertainty.

sometimes there's faith too, the presence of confidence and the trust even if we travel to the ravines of the unknown. the knowing that even if you are unknowing, everything will still turn out right. (even if its wrong.)

what makes then, the constant struggle between the two equally dubious human nature? do we try to make sure we find the answers, no matter how ugly and how dangerous the truth is, or do we remain faithful and keep believing that life is not as bad as we all think?

when it comes to human relations, this all reaches another level. because where uncertainty lies, it means distrust, when distrust occurs, it means losing a friend, losing a close one, losing the love of your life. if that's the ending result, then why not trust wholeheartedly. will that be easy? will that ever be easy?

for me, i go with the latter to the previous question. i like having faith in people. and of course, lots of people have faith in other people. we tend to give ourselves more, and give ourselves easily. but is that because we want others to have faith in us too? do we trust others for others to trust ourselves? how deep would that be to the heart? and when finally the truth comes, the hurt remains everlastingly.

i still have a tinge of faith, this reservoir of endless faith in me that kept me going, that i can often tap into when truth deceives me. how long will that last then, how long will others last? is that in itself deception? i always believe that we should make the best of what we can in our lives. (because its singular and all)

so no matter what, so no matter how uncertain what lies ahead, i still choose to live by promises. because for me, promises are not meant to be broken. promises may stay, promises may break. promises lie not in the end-result, its the process of wanting to make a promise. like many lessons learnt, many experiences gained. we may break a promise, but without even making that promise; to others, to yourself, do we even have the chance to keep faith? or will we be more uncertain of life's trials?

but promises: they keep us all stronger, keep us all alittle more -faithful, throughout a lifetime.