an update on my life.

it has been an eternal struggle even towards the end of 2007.
after the promos, it was natural for me to hibernate, and to bank on the many wonders of stayovers and mere city-crashing with the bunch of guys.
that special bunch of you guys, yl xd roy.
but.

we have to make sure that chinese As and OP have to be contemplated with. and it was like a hallucination for me, i am sure for most of you too. it seems we have been trained endlessly to be at our continual best efforts, that there's just too many things to mark one as truly significant. and then we all deviate our strengths, knowing that we can never fall back and try to revitalise because there's just no chance. no time.

and come to think of it, we all had to do what we all had to do. and just like that, two major examinations ended without much of a fanfare.

we were all definitely exhausted.

those two examinations was pretty significant to a certain extent.

a few centuries of chinese education, to be more specific, 10 years plus 2years of kindergarten's introduction and it was all boiled down to that one paper. during that examination, i had that mentality throughout the paper and of course, you can never squeeze everything into that one paper. i was not fully contented. :) but it was the best i could do.

chinese language has always been that reflective side of us, teaching us more than just mere facts but there was an element of feelings, an element of morals and virtues. and if we were all alittle more attentive, we would really learn alot from the mere "textbooks" of 12 years.

if i pass this H1 paper, it will be the very last formal chinese paper i set out to do. and then it will be more or less at the back of our heads. a whole world of language in a forgotten realm. just this once more, cheers to that second language i have always neglected.

then there was PW, the course of a year of messy, informal discusssions and haphazardous displays of resources, even some we made up with our genius minds. but our effort pays off. definitely for me, because that groundbreaker was de la salle. and it mattered quite alot to me. to know that this time, education comes in the form where you can negotiate, where you can do something that pleases you. the difficulty lies only in the coordination and the teamwork of my group but as long as we keep striving, it was more than just a pleasant surprise when we pulled it off during the oral presentation. cheers to you guys, adam, yingying, chris, cheryl.

and life continues, after a slumber or half a slumber at hsuante's, i feel much more insync with life. more in control once more. of the choices that will forge my very life. and i know there's nothing but the very journey that our every step will take that will finally shape us to who we are today.

been busy with ocip, but that will be a totally different story for another day. another entry.

live that life you so truly want, because who else can make that decision? who else can make you want to relive that moment, make you regret, make you think of the past and the achievements, the times? its all within you. only you.

thankyou for that wonderful entry. you said it took you an hour, but it will be with me for eternal. :)