whee. everyone's feeling shit. everyone sane. according to xd, we have forgotten what tired means. oh no. its not only the fatigue. its the ambience. its the shit that's thrown at you everyday.

met up with guanwen today. oh man, long time no see and you are as "du lan" as ever. or whatever you call it. :) the usual frustrated look. well. it seems like we have so much angst, we get into emo state immediately. seems like there's one more josephian who feels that sji is still the home. the home baby. we travelled and we poured out our lives. till we were at lido. and guess what. two guy needing a shopping therapy. there's this nike 50% sale. and we were talking like old aunties. two guys solemnly thrashing out life. its pretty cool.

it seems like we just got an experience of what reality and life can be otherwise. in sji, it was all trying out. all the chances, all the rooms for improvements. life can be even worse. not everyone is exactly happy with their lives at one point in life. but we gonna accept it and squeeze the purpose out of it.

for now, i am willing to try out how much i can truly take as a person. how much i can restrain before i break. its a self-test of true personality, i need the gauge for my own. i need to squeeze the purpose after all. though i knew i had one last time. its a game over and a restart. doesnt restart gives you a better understanding of the whole game all the time? i just know that i have seriously grown up much more after everything that happened. that i am old and at least a little wiser. life cannot be taken for granted. i know now that life can change, before you even feel the full impact. it has gotten you on the ground.

restart. but restart wisely.

its knowing that the shit's there and we still gonna stand right up.