Wednesday, March 14, 2007
as i scrolled through my blog without a thought, i realised the amount of words that are put down here. i cldnt believe i had written so much, especially last time. it just goes on and on. moments of euphoria, excitement, achievement, nostalgia, plain boredom. it effectively made me a whole.
here i am again. rambling bout the whys of merely being here. i guess this post is and will be repetitive, as long as blog is a tool i used as a record of my life, as my timekeeper, as my self-checklist.
life took a drastic turn upon receiving my o's. the inability to pursue geography as a H2 because i cant make the cut. there was this NUS thing that needed students that meet the requirement of o's. i figured out that my score, though wonderful, just arent wonderful at all. but what really bit me was geog. i love geog. i thought of being a geog teacher. cos geog is the study of phenomenon through time. cos the phenomenon is life itself. cos life is something so fragile in the massive world. cos i somehow could relate to geog. taking a H1 geog just dont seem right. not meeting so many requirements just from an o's certificate, it really sucks. did i really not put in my best?
but then there were friends. and friends are that edge in life. that meaning u are alive every single moment. to know that life still goes on, that the world doesnt revolve round a grade, but more of a person u are. it gave me a reason to scold myself for being stupid and smile again. and friends or geog in life? i will say that friends is a better substitute for a phenomenon in life. it all links when 1t36 is the 1t09 from last time. it signifies my revival.
grades are an important part of ur life. but grades are seen in a person, not a person seen in a grade. the heart dont beat for the aggregate score. as much as the score makes the heart beat alittle faster. friends make the whole beating a whole lot more meaningful.
now i know, my drastic turn is not for the worst. its a drastic turn to come back again. its like an action/reaction thing. when we go down, we will surely go up again.
and we will go up. much higher than before.
10:58 PM
