things are moving fast.. every day seem only serve to be meant for a larger-scale, massive picture that will affect my life forever. 1 whole week could mean full geography and chemistry revision, something i wouldnt like to do if i had the choice. Watever, i need to settle down and do what i HAVE to do..Its the 24th April, already a few more leaps nearer the O's since the last time i blogged. Its like the triple jump and i had already taken the 1st jump.. the 2nd and the last would come soon after, very much sooner than the slow build-up for the 1st.. basically because of the momentum and the need to jump anyway..

as predicted, luckily, the dispute in ncc had kinda finally settled. The inconfidence of the throne being overtaken by some nemesis or the scare of the absence of respect for the throne itself is null now. Oh.. its not only me needing to protect and defend against the nemesis, even though i spent countless sleepless night trying to win meaningless grounds and then preventing it to be retaken again. Its more like this spark ignited by the nemesis targeted at me backfired and finally everything is disclosed and make known to the higher beings. Now, the higher beings are no more against me but rather united in putting me together once again. They finally understand the damn sufferings i had to go through alone. Now everyone is happy, at least the worried, the good, the innocent. & of course, Mr Jude Tan told us csms, that our time is nearly up, its time we have to let go and let the juniors have the thrills of their lives. They will become different persons i guaranteed. One who had witnessed "alittle" trouble, chaos, politics. Not only that, bt also one who are forced and decided to change because of circumstances and grew a tat stronger. People who have smelled blood, tasted many tears, finally learnt the true cruelty of reality and alittle smarter in making decisions for his own survival.

Now, i will jus hav to make sure i maintain the throne. tht's first and definitely easier. its like a good impression is already given by everyone, cadets, specs, sirs alike. Now it's just HOW much this impression will stay burning and alive in someone's heart, in how many people's heart. this is definitely difficult.. its like darrenn eng still lingers in my mind.. the csm that i had when i was sec2. Minimum conflict now, though tht nemesis's poised to return.. its futile.. its extinct. i am all the way up there already.. u dont stand a chance anymore. I will focus the last few chances to fully utilise my skills, my words, my actions, my way of doing things. the very first principle of wy i was chosen as a csm.. i will give everything back, i will talk about the politics, i will talk about tht importance of friendship, i will share and give the things that i myself hav picked up along the way to u guys.. part As, Bs, Cs, even Ds. and hopefully, u all will nt hav the bad mindset about ncc again, because it really do make u alot more mature, alot more scarred, alot more experienced. and when we are finally asked to leave, u all will hav a faint reminder of my words that linger forever in ur mind, ur heart that will really help u to cope, even the slightest stress or when u felt like u hav given up. its not like i might be capable of that, but what's a student leader for? a student leader for 120 military boys? who will come quietly, face tht little nemesis then leave quietly? i dont wan to be able to learn myself, i wan to be able to share. this is whr i really come in.. more storytime cadets. especially the future csms, the future appointment holders, u all will know that thr's this guy who had gone through wad u are going through.. the times when u take the parade for the 1st time, and the last time, the 1st time u drop the pacestick, and of course, the v first time u get screwed real bad. u will have your stories to pen down, & i will be really touched.. if i am part of your lives. in the story dated back to 2006.