sometimes i will jus feel bored.. like now.. its like neither here nor there.. not really too late but not early at all.. everything seemed so perfect, its the hols and i am very much enjoying myself after the camps, but thr's so many things undone.. then thr's still e stupid ncc politics long forgotten.. i cant decide on anything to start looking forward too, plus the o's round e corner and while i am thinking, time passes all the same.. sometimes i really wonder, whether i am wasting lots of time jus doin things tht are not very relevant.. but isn't tht life, u sometimes hav to lie low and jus relax? but how long more can i do tht? it might be weird to think bout all these now, but it jus crosses my mind..


as i was gettin back from causeway point, i saw small kids everywhere. in the train, along the streets.. they were all smiling, very much all the time.. and everything was amazing to them.. looking at them gaze out e windows of e mrt and lookin so awed by everything tht passed by.. then i saw some playing in the playground, with nothing in their mind but gettin to their friends.. then there were those nosey ones askin their parents bout everything they see.. they got me thinking bout my childhood last time too, the time i played endlessly and have nothing much in my mind but fun.. the many times i cried just becoz i couldnt get what i wanted.. those were the days.. the days when i dun hav to care bout anything in the world but myself..it had long gone i think, like everyone else close to me now.. we are all driven by commitments and its no more bout fun.. those kids will know this one day too, that they too had to get out of their comfort zones and do things no one liked.. and then u start questioning bout whether u really do fulfill ur life.. well, sometimes u gonna see life the hard way i think.. tht's how we stand up and learn to adapt to circumstances, tht's when we really grow up.. or in the process of growin up.. its painful sometimes, yup? well.. i miss those days, when its nothing but me and playing..