60 plus more mins and its december. i thought i just had my hols started yesterday, around the end of oct. and bam. it's dec alr. and i will start the month of dec with a course and a camp, back to back.its 8 days of action, 9 days of commitment. and as i am blogging, seconds are ticking away..

well, i still hafta face everything tht comes my way no matter how.. its bout believing in urself, and know u can go through it. and in the end, there will be a story in u tht will last u a lifetime. hopefully. 8 days? i better make my life worth thr.. so i am goin there with an aim. to look forward to the hols after tht, and to cherish my time more.

i made it sound so easy.. but nobody knows the crap that i am goin through.. very much sympathise only.. even my mom.. haha, so this entry, is very much bout jovian, my ex-csm.. sometimes its kinda cool to really hav someone whom had gone thru wad i had more or less exactly, giving you some pulling up along the way.. its hard to hav a person tht gone thru exactly like you did, so comes the different friends we got.. the different ppl we can relate to in different situations.. and its really cool to hav them around.. esp. when u are down.. i thank all you buds out thr.. haha..

well, i still cant escape reality this way.. from the moment i became csm, the letter c.s.m hav been burnt into me permanently.. its not so much bout regrettin, and its not bout the big load i hafta carry all the time now.. its bout acceptin the fact, and move on and do wadever test me.. and in the end, i will hav a story, my own unique story for my kids and everyone else. and it will be a different story, no matter how boring, how extravagant, its different from everyone.

its called my life.