things just come and go, first u are anticipating for its arrival, nxt its all over.. these 4 days of home alone experience really taught me lots of stuff. it may not mean anythin much to lots of ppl, ppl who had seriously longer time alone than me.. yet, this is the only time i got to survive on my own.. got to cook for myself, well, very much just noodles.. nv grew tired of them though.. prepare my own stuff, esp. my uniform for school and everythin else.. well, its not really 4 days since saturday i gotta bunk in xd's house and sunday we got to watch skeleton key with grace & co. Finally got to know how grace really look like. yea, enough said bout tht.

the first statement really meant my life for these 4 days, first with the last training of the year and today's thanksgiving ceremony all wrapped up with me alone at home.. it was cool to be alone at home, but its will not be better any longer, u feel the boredom screwed into u.. but i noticed something, its like my whole family, even though separated, across seas, dad working and me minding my own business, we are still very much connected, with this invisible strings attached to everyone of us.. its like we still hav each other in mind time to time, it really doesnt mean anythin much, but it was juz cool to realise that.. well, alone at home makes me think alot.. even my grandmother cared bout me so much, with her calling so many times at night, askin me bout my dinner and basically asking how i am.. yea, got to tok to her for quite some time..

and when i thought i can start tokin bout their hols and everything tht we hav missed, i have to go to some ace camp as an ace leader, facilitating.. at first we all wanted to go together, yl and xd.. i dunno wad happened, i dunno why, but in the end i was left with myself.. yet, the shit tht i had gotten into, i hav to clear it somehow.. wad's a camp when the ppl there are hardly close to u at all.. well, i cant complain, the other side of me jus wanna serve the sch, juz wanna get the points and everything.. i jus have to get thru it somehow, whether i like it or not, bag's already packed, wad can i do yea? ( i cant do my best if i dun enjoy it though.. haiz..)

just hope tht my mom and my sis get back tmr very much happier ppl, they must really enjoy alot with all the shopping in hong kong.. cant wait to know bout their journey, but i still hav a obstacle, a commitment of 4 days to overcome be4 i can do tht, and it just doesnt feel nice leaving when they are comin back.. after the camp, i seriously needa spend more time with my family and friends..they matter more than anythin else.

*sis, if u see this, tell mum bout it.. lol.. (i go bored alone here, but its first-hand experience so yea, very worth tokin bout it.)