bombs had been dropping like an everyday thing since last monday. two bombs per day, neverending.. some looked big and its effect must be massive, but i had been thru it, and was actually juz disguise. some i bagged them in.. easily, some of them nearly got in my way, but e silent killer came on friday, the day when already 8 bombs had affected me mentally & spiritually.. fatigue had already drivened me crazy and i thought the reward of two bombless days would be nice. so i came in, got all my equipments ready and i thought, "juz two bombs again, the usual, come serve it up.." but it came too fast, i thought i was prepared, i thought the bomb was small.. but u noe atomic bomb are small too.. another one in disguise..caught me right in my face, and i was more dead than ever.. my dream was gone, my luck was no more.. i juz broke my promise and i felt lousy.. the following bomb came later, my senses were haywired already and when it came, i juz wish this was all over, it hit one more time but i felt numb.. i nv felt so lousy, all my weeks of preparation to tackle them, all gone to waste becoz i overlooked on a small bomb which i thought i took extra care of... anyway. two bombless nights is already gonna be over and 4 bombs still awaits me.. its my choice to get bac into focus or let it rip me apart further.. now wad?

all i noe, i cant overlook anymore, everyone of them i will hav to destroy and to overcome like i had nv done be4. i will nv give way to fatigue, coz i noe after this onslaught, i will be guaranteed 2 months plus of bombfree days.. i dun wanna spoil those days.