already the 20th post, i began to feel much easier & comfortable to put down wad i hav gone thru, wad i hav learnt and juz wad crap is goin thru my mind, like other bloggers everywhr in the world.. i rmb the first time i settle down tryin to start joining the club of bloggin, it was no big annoucement or entrance to me startin a blog.. i clicked a few buttons and there i was, got my own one.. no one knows at first and i rmb how i spend nearly an hour completin my first entry.. i didn noe whr to start, how to end, i thought a million ppl will be lookin at my blog and yes, i dream quite alot.. then i started practically "reading" thru the template, tryin to make some sense from them, some i did, some got me all mad, later, some of my buddies told me my entries were inspiring, tht was wad are really wanted to achieve in my life at tht time, mayb even now, to help others the best tht i can, tht was how i landed as a csm from wad ben said.. he said he rather choose me to be a csm than a part i/c, so tht i can inspire the whole company instead of juz a part.. then i thought, even my blog can reach out to some ppl somehow, it was cool, and i began writing more.. some ppl think i wrote too much, but all the same, i hav to write, i hav to express myself somehow..

after awhile, it wasnt any big deal afterall, with so many other commitments at hand.. i feel more away from this space than last time.. i rmb bloggin everyday last time, even addin some quotes, now mayb a week once..quotes are even more extinct.. but every entry i put in, tht's part of me really, and lookin at the tags in that otherwise dead rectangular tagboard, i jus feel so great tht they are ppl who spare their time, typin e url and reading thru my posts, and actually replies to them sometimes.. think wad i can do is to do the same too, no matter how insignificant a tag mayb, i think those tagged will feel really acknowledged somehow..

as i continue playin around this blog, i hope tht in the end, i will gain somethin from this experience..somethin positive and i think i hav already succeeded in finding it.. u guys readin this will surely know wad bloggin had already done for you.. ppl i know hav blogged far longer than me, so yea.. i hope my purpose will be met but even if it is not, i knew i had fun in the end.

happy birthday mom, u are gettin old. haha.. no particular words is enough to summarise who you are, nothing can replace you for who you are to me, esp. these few months of joy, frustration, anguish, sadness, all sorts of things we had gone thru and havin you being there for me without fail, i will be a different me without u, trust me..

so today is nothing special, coz everyday is.. thanks for being thr for me..