I stepped forward and walked towards the interview room. I didnt took notice of how i feel particularly, i just thought to myself, 'what needed to be done have to be done." It was a few weeks before the Annual Parade and it was just like an ordinary recess period. Just a few moments ago, nigel and i was together outside the staff room, both silent, wondering about everything in the world..he looked pretty relaxed, i think i was too..

Mr Sirhan had just appeared and asked anyone of us in. So yes, jus get this over and done with.. I went in after that. It was cool, this was my fifth interview with an adult so far and by far the best. i thought it will be the usual "why you think you are capable of being ...; what makes you special...?? etc.." Nope, not this time. He started off like an old friend, how's life in sji this 3 years.. and of course asked me bout my particulars, what's my cca.. class.. then asked bout my post in ncc nxt time.. i looked him in the eye, and told him "csm", finished off with a stupid smile. haha.. i wasnt really prepared to being a csm last time, and whenever anyone ask me or tok to me bout my post, i will shun away from the topic.. I thought i was abit too ego, but i pressed on.. He was stern for awhile, then finally broke the silence, returning the same friendly gesture.. "you wanna be like jovian huh? sec 3 then become?" i smiled, i got his meaning there.. and juz barely3 minutes, i ended off with a nice topic bout Annual Parade..

That was the prefect's interview i had quite a long time ago. Now i looked back, i seen some changes already from the kaichuen just weeks ago.. i remembered how inconfident i was last time, how even when i was told i was getting the outstanding nco and still hav doubts bout being a csm.. then i forgot almost everything bout the prefect incident, ncc took the main stage after the interview..

then came today, mr sydney tan made an annoucement bout the new prefects stuff.. kept me moving a little, but i was prepared already.. no more like the time when i cant get a psf.. i told myself once in a while, tht i am already the student leader of my cca, tht i already hav tht big responsibility weighing over me.. if i really cant get it, juz meant tht there's a reason behind it.. everything tht happens comes with a reason, tht doesnt mean there is always a good reason though.. and of course, i heard from rod and jian hao few days back bout the new prefects, they made it sound like i was in it and when i approached them they juz refused to tell..but their expressions show it all.. and so juz before recess, nigel and i went strolling across the parade square, towards the prefectorial notice board.. toking bout the many responsibilties and positions we are holding already..i thought back, bac to the old pri sch days, the lower sec life, the times when i couldnt give a damn bout anythin but play.. but of course, i prefer havin responsibilities than juz wandering around in life, and still be able to help my alma mater one way or another.. still, i will wanna relive my old self one day, the carefree me..

Written on an A4 size paper, i saw my name bolded, together with some other new prefects, nigel and yiuleung.. yep, i jus got myself another commitment, but i feel one step "completed" already.. i hav been recognized further by the staffs in school..and i feel really touched tht still there are ppl living in the same world as i am acceptin me and entrusting to me.. its all bout those acceptance and recognition thing.. its really heartwarmin sometimes to know tht someone somewhr hav you in mind.. we looked at the paper, smiled once to each other, and headed bac to class, like an ordinary day but with a tinge less cloud, more light, more hope..

Thanks Ms Periasamy, Mr Low, and other teachers for givin me this one-time opportunity to practice servant leadership in a whole new way.. thanks for being there for me, showin the way to another door in my life.. i will open it with all the "power" i have as i embarked on the never-changing everlasting journey towards discovery..