5 weeks. 35 days. just a little more than a month. And as i am typing away, every second tick silently by. It's tantamount to the period of time before a huge catastrophe. that silence befalling everyone on the battlefield, the expressions on everyone's face, most determined, some uncertain, few unaffected.. That slow incline towards the final climax, when everyone prepared their defences and check on final disorders & loopholes.. It is this period of time, when it will determine how prepared we are during the catastrophe.. some will triumph over them, some barely surviving, others just totally screwed.. but this is not the time to forecast, not the time to talk about the calamity.. its not even the time to boast about how early you have started preparing, worse of all how proud you are not doing anything yet.. because in the end, we save our own butt, now we prepare ourselves, in our own ways, for the final showdown.

there's always a start. i tried several times after Annual Parade. One thing done led to another bolder and more important commitment or even objective. looking at some of my buddies already startin to prepare, it gave me that atmosphere that the day is arriving soon. every year it was the same, in the sense that the calamity is always right at the end, that final hurdle before the dessert can be served. You reap what you sow, the better u get over the hurdle, the better the reward at the end will be.. Its not always the organizing abilities that one needed to prepare himself, rather the initiative spirit, that motivation, drive that kept u going, and the amount of commitment you are willing to put it into.. Last two years in SJI, i dont really understand this significance, i do what my classmates do, i see them not doing anything, i slacked behind too, i thought, "hey, it's okay, we are in this together.." now i know, its you and yourself, only you have that initiative to choose what to do, friends can only show you the door, u have to walk through it yourself, they can be there for you, they can be there motivating you by examples, by big words, yet you choose to start or not..

Sec 3. its the year when everything changes, for the better or worse, you choose it yourselves, more commitments for us as the sec 4s stepped down. 1 more year before the O's. this year, i really achieve so much more enlightenments,so much more setbacks and obstacles than in sec 1 and 2 combined.. yet it builds me up for what i am and for the future problems that i will encountered nxt time.. i discover a whole new meaning of self-motivation, and taking care of oneself. I will do my best this time, i always say this, but yes, every try give you a better edge over your opponent, i wont give up, even if there's only the slightest chance of victory. I will have the faith and strength to carry on and sail thru this period of 'silence' and reap what i deserved accordin to how much i am willin to sow..

i will make it up to you too, coz i am ur son. what u hav told me, no matter how little it is, or how insignificant u hav shown that u care bout my results, i know you do. hav faith in me, i will do my best.

9 subjects.
9 distinctions.
(wait long, some say. hav faith, let me try.)
Do the impossible straight away, miracles take a little longer. - SJI NCC(Land)
1 chance.
Do or Die. Its up to me.