Today seems normal, too normal actually. away from the busy schedules every schday, away from the many friends' outings, away from every sch event. i was stuck at home all the time. mayb i really needed this day, this day to experience that slow pace of life which i nv had since i dunno when.. this day to reflect on the many past events and things tht wasnt all too perfect for me.. this day to just recuperate and lay back at home, feelin the comfort of my house i rarely took notice of now..

i woke up at 12noon, after i slept at 3am last night, and i felt like sleepin more. my mum started waking me up like she always did everytime i oversleep. actually i didn, i set my alarm at 12..yea, those small little details can be easily missed, but i can still rmb tht trust with my mum, she always helps me without fails.. i seriously gotta spend more time with my family amidst those other commitments i hav man..

anyway, after lunch 2pm, i started on my hw. no one to bother me, no one to talk to me.. ( everyone's out.) will i last long? i thought to myself.. oh well, i still hav to complete no matter wad.. i do then revise, geography, chemistry.. everythin tht i failed to do.

3pm. lookin thru my chemistry.
4pm. lookin thru my chemistry.
5pm. revising geography.
6pm. revising geograpy.
7pm. doin my hw
8pm. my hw again.
9pm. looking at the time. wow... and continued through my hw.

okay.. seriously, it may not mean much to you. but i actually spend so much time on my studies. this is a first.. i am so proud of myself, i was battling myself throughout tht time.. there's this two sides in my mind. to give up and use the com, or juz to continue my work. i actually chose the latter. this is SO unlike me.. and i really feel the change. aside from some stoppage for some food, i continued... images of yl,xd sometimes crossed my mind. i wondered wad they are doin, work too? then thoughts bout ncc lingered in my mind for awhile. but i feel different, i feel so relaxed, so much different from juz last week.

in the comforts of my home, i suddenly realised.. how much i missed home. how much i missed the time i had when all i had was time, and i was so carefree back then.. now. its totally different, the works, the stress, and even today, i didn even realised i still hav the choice to be tht way. onli until now, it stills boil down to one thing.. thts our choice. the decision tht we make, to be so stressed up or to feel tht comfort long gone from home. i feel so renewed, like i hav nv been be4. and i hope it will last.