"Peer Support Facilitator Application Form," it says. It may looked like an ordinary A4 paper to us.. but it meant a whole new different thing to me. And to my buddies too i think. Looking at tht form, while awaitin for my chem prac exams with yiu leung, i remembered the turning point in my life in sec 2 when i got tht "Peer Support Leader Application Form", " Kai Chuen, you have been nominated by NCC(Land) to..." It was tht time, tht moment in my life that made me the person i am now. I NEVER regretted any one point in being a psl. whenever i wore tht green shirt, i walked with that pride, that confidence.. sec 2 was really my highest point in my life.. every opportunity was given to me.. and i learnt step by step. To overcoming my fears, my expression disability..

i think most of the psls felt tht too.. and yes, i got my buddies thru tht.. yiu leung. hsuan te. i really cant say anythin more.. i am really touched by this whole thing, tht change in my life..yl,xd,if u are readin this, i hope u feel the same way as i do man...

now. one step higher, i really hope three of us will get thr together.. and yes, yl and i were tokin bout "What If" amidst our chemistry practical books.. i really dunno too, even my ncc post, so many things are still kept in suspense and only time can unveil them.. but yl, even if we cant get it, we are forever PSLs. tht spirit will be in us as long as we live. Remember wad we used to say, or even still saying, "we are psls, there's nothin we cant do." haha..

as anxiety continues to mingle with my brain, my heart, my soul, i gt much better defence than mere givin up, i got my family, my friends. they backed me up, they continue bringin in e meaning of life to me. no matter wad post i get, wad chances i hav being psf, i got u guys to share my joys and sorrows with.. Lookin at tht paper again, i start thinking all over again.. whether to laugh, to cry, or to cry happily, every emotion i hav now, derived from there.. yea.


"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love and the things you never want to lose" - SzeFong