all set in writing my third post, yet everythin in my blog other than my posts is not done at all.. then again, isnt blog more for reflections rather than designs?

Annual Parade. rehearsal is already starting soon, this friday actually ( i juz found out), and yea, no idea about our designated post at all.. everyday marks another step towards the final discovery that we long awaits, the finaly destiny we hav for the nxt 1 year.. even though its kinda true that i am amongst the top 5, yet what i want is another thing... i heard from others, and even myself saying,"Ranks not important, its juz a piece of cloth, what's important is being happy with what you are, being contented with what is expected of you, the only thing we should gain in the end is the lessons learnt and respect from others". Thinkin thru these lines, did i really gain any respect thru the 3 years i had in NCC? did i really know my strengths that determines me, of what i should be and what i can be? i do not want others to think that i got what i wanted because of my "achievements", because of my "Outstanding Cadet Sec2" status.. i do not want other ppl's weaknesses be my strengths. i want to find my own strengths, my own qualities tht really determines my "rank", my post.. i want others to see me through my unique qualities..

Sometimes many ppl will say, " u hav a lot of leadership qualities", i want to ask them, what are they? leadership qualities..its all too vague.. anyway, i really found more about myself thru the holidays and there's not much time to discover more.. all i could say is, come what may, tell me what i should be.. all i can say in the end is tht i am the best if u all think i am the best, if i am not, then there are ppl better than me.. what matters most is tht everyone is happy with who they are.. sometimes, "a leader will not always see his things smoothly, there will surely be many obstacles along and we juz hav to accept it.. our postings may juz be the beginning..

As i continue my days with homeworks already piling up, with NCC already part of everyday's life again, i wonder again at my last post.. of coz i am happy when i am back in my community again, yet when there are good things, there will always be a bad side to it.. i cannot forget bout my commitments tht i hav told myself be4.. Let me be strong in whatever i do as the path to discovery continues..

Everyone is himself a leader... - Yiu Leung
What distinguishes one from another is their unique abilities and styles..